I feel like a changed man every few months though nothing basic changes. No wonder things around me keep changing very often and I stay witness, and ponder once in a while that change is constant and time just flies by. I’m left confused, looking to go somewhere new. I find myself On a Sailboat, At the Crossroads.
Not too long ago I started blogging tenaciously, keen (so I called my blog – Trenchant) at expressing my self and staying abreast with happenings of the world. Soon my passions became plenty. I felt like wanting to do anything to everything at once, like it was now or never. To blogging I added public speaking, yoga and then there was Trekking and traveling, then came The Guitar and Tennis and Swimming and Photography. Oh what not! That was when I announced to the world that ‘You really have all the time in the world to do all this and more’. I did well at office too. 🙂 I felt on top of the world when I strummed the Guitar to a newly learnt tune or when I swam across to the other end of the swimming pool in one stretch. I felt like a king, but yet again confused and looking for something new. I find myself On a Sailboat, At the Crossroads.
Without much of my knowledge or consent things around me seem to change. My responsibilities at work changed, and so did my perceptions about a few things in life. I found my self thinking new thoughts, making new plans though noting seemed to work. I stopped playing tennis, going to Toastmasters club, I neither went to trek nor did I play the guitar any more. I did not blog or even photograph much. I realized one day that I was only going to work and coming back exhausted. I did not complain that I was not able to do all those things I liked but I simply seemed to have put them aside without a qualm. I worked like a dog, like a cat and like all kinds of animals. I’ve no regrets though. I got suitable rewards too…. I guess. But I find my self in a fix again. I find myself On a Sailboat, At the Crossroads.
I’m nevertheless at the crossroads one in a while. I’m sure most of us feel that way once every few months. But I feel most people choose a new road consciously. Its another thing that the choice could be right or wrong for them though. But they seem to do it consciously.
I seem to go with the wind! Yeah now you get it…that’s why I see myself ‘On a Sailboat, At the Crossroads’. I realize that I’m going with the wind, but only when I see myself at another cross roads!
I meet many people, be through many situations, feel happy, feel sad, make friends, lose loved ones, all in the transit. Its a whirlwind-roller-coaster-sailboat-ride for me! I neither seem to steer nor do I seem to care. Now again…I’m on the look to go somewhere new. I find myself On a Sailboat, At the Crossroads.
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